My grief memoir

Debbie and I

Debbie and I

I have really struggled to write a blog about my sister’s death, my grieving, and the memoir I am currently writing.  I know part of the challenge is where to start.  Do I begin by listing the facts, like an obituary notice? Or do I begin by writing about the “phone call”?Receiving the dreaded phone call seems like a blog posting in of itself. I can say I received a phone call in February, 2013 that my younger sister had been found dead. She had died in her sleep. It was later ruled an accidental overdose, for a medication she was taking had a slightly higher than normal amount. She was only 43 and left behind a husband and two sons.

I found out about her death the next morning when my parents made “the phone call.” Like any family member who has lost their loved ones, I was an emotional basket case. I was catapulted into a new reality. Like the Matrix, I felt that there was part of me living in one dimension and the other part living in a different dimension. My grief is no worse than someone else’s pain, yet my grief was and is complicated.  We came from a dysfunctional childhood with  alcoholism, domestic violence, and incest. But, and a big BUT, the hope and healing through Jesus Christ that I experienced 20+ years ago continues to guide me through a maze of emotions and memories.

My hope and prayer is that others who have had complicated childhoods and/or catapulted prematurely down a grief journey will be encouraged by my grief experience.

“The Lord is a refuge and a fortress” Psalm 91:1

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NCFI Cares: The Shelter of the Most High

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He who dwells in the shelter of the Most High, will abide in the shadow of the Almighty. Psalm 91

Psalm 91 is a song of trust and hope that guides us in understanding our God and the protection he provides. It is not a guarantee that nothing bad will happen to us. Instead it is, as one bible scholar states “no fear and no fall”. This spiritual covering is a protection from the elements outside the Lord’s hand. We do not have to be afraid of what comes our way in this life.

Our God is the Almighty, the Supreme Being and Ruler of everything on earth and in heaven (1 Chronicles 29:11-13). And we have a choice to dwell with Him. Not just a onetime choice at salvation, but a daily surrender to the Most High. This choice brings the assurance of abiding with the Lord (1 John 4:15).Yes, pain and suffering may befall us, but we rest in the confidence that our Lord is in control and we can rest in the shadow of his presence.

During recent personal events, the Lord opened my heart to the wisdom and blessing of His security with Psalm 91. As the Lord continues to encourage me, I will encourage you with the strength and assurance each verse provides. My prayer is that His blessing will spill over to your colleagues, patients and family; for truly our cup runs over (Psalm 23:5).